Who do I believe?
Words come at me from every side
I can’t believe I was so naïve
I can’t believe I was so blind
You seemed to be my Prince Charming
I thought you were sent from above
You were my breath; you gave my life meaning
…The one to whom I dedicated my love
Now I lie in the darkness and I wonder
If any of the words were true
Was there ever love in your heart for me?
Or was I just another target for you
Words come at me from every angle
Whispers about how you were a con
Signs of deception were all around me
Everyone seemed to sense something wrong
Why is it then that life seemed so perfect?
When you held me and whispered my name
When you kissed me I felt warm and protected
On whom do I now cast the blame?
For my heart is being pulled in two directions
My soul…is shattered beyond belief
My mind is confused and dejected
I feel sadness and loneliness without reprieve
I remember our moments together
They seemed warm, sincere, and true
Could those memories be truly empty for you?
Just part of your plan; part of the ruse
Could you truly be that deceptive?
Could you truly be that evil a man?
To speak of love, of God, of our future
While working your own devious plan
Or are these moments truly misconceptions?
Is this all an unfortunate coincidence of time?
Are you a man trapped by misfortune?
With a heart that truly is mine
I know that we will never know the answer
For time in itself changes everything
These days have brought forth doubt and sorrow
Wedding bells in our future will not ring
Our dreams have been broken; have been shattered
By words; by deeds of your past
To cherish; to love one another forever
Have turned in to another love that didn’t last
I give up on trying for true love
I don’t believe it will ever exist
I’m better off alone; free of the heartache
Alone…by myself…I will live
Written by TaVona Salaz Treadwell