Am I the only one that wonders if I deserve
Heaven and all of the rewards it brings
I never feel that I have been good enough
To earn even a single feather of an angel’s wings
I have been told… and I know it’s true
That Jesus paid the price for my sinful ways
I am not burdened by the depth of my sin
His blood washed the dirt of my life away
Yet when I think of death; the eternal sleep
I worry I will be judged for the wrong I’ve done
I will stand before His throne; head bowed in shame
The truth apparent; so much left undone
My heart was never truly given to His word
I lived life on the edge of His world and mine
Trying to balance my life of earthly sin
A Christian and a sinner’s life entwined
I always knew the “right” thing to do
Yet my life seemed to wander from His lead
I had the heart with a Christian soul
But my body seemed led by worldly needs
In the eyes of the world I kept the faith
Yet I judged myself; guilty as sin
Rationalizing each day; my choices in the world
Yet wondering if there’s a time when mercy ends
To live by the Truth; is not an easy task
But is made easier when done as a show of love
In hope of making the Holy Father proud
As He watches our lives from heaven above
Out of love I will give myself to Him
Think about the choices I make in my daily life
I may not be perfect when I approach the Holy gates
But my Father will know… how hard I’ve tried.
Written by TaVona Salaz Treadwell