Will I be remembered when I’m gone?
I ask myself as I sit and cry
What will I leave when I am here no more?
I’m beginning to think my life is a lie
Is anyone happy? Is anyone content?
Is the world a stage where we all appear…
To live the lives…other would want?
But when the curtains close the smiles disappear
I sit and wonder where the days have gone
Why dreams that were near, have now seemed to stray
I think of the things that I have prayed for in my life
And I question why God has kept them away
I only wanted what seemed within reach
I didn’t ask for gold or fairy tales
I only wanted to be cherished and loved
Instead I’m alone, wondering “where I have failed?”
My heart is heavy; mistakes have been made
And I wonder if my life will ever change
My mind doesn’t know which direction to take
I sit and wonder “do I take all the blame?”
My mind is screaming “Dig Out Of This Hole!”
But my heart is heavy and weighing me down
My tears seem to flow never-ending down my face
As I wear my misery like a thorn-edged crown
I feel alone, wondering what damage I’ve done
For we all have a purpose in life to fulfill
I know that I’ve lived my life for myself
Taken the path best for Me; but lived not by His will
I tell myself; my intentions were worthy
I tell myself; I did the best that I could
But I know in my heart, I took the easy way out
If I could do things differently; I know that I would
This moment marks a point of resolve in my life
A time of clarity; a point of no return
When I realize that God has given me another day
To wipe away the tears and use the lesson I’ve learned
Written by TaVona Salaz Treadwell